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Thank you

Posted in 2015, Life, Malaysian, Self, Uncategorized on September 25, 2015 by Joharizm

This was my speech on the last day of class before we graduated from Pinewoods/Imagica.

“What can I say about Suzy Chambre’ Sternlicht?
Apart from being the voice of reason to Mark and James, she’s our mentor in the world of editing. She is also our friend that we share our jokes and stories with. I don’t know about you guys but she is our home away from home and as well as our foster mother. When she took care of Neesha when she was sick, brought us treats for us even during day one and celebrating Sally birthday was the icing on a wonderful 2 months baked cake.

Suzy taught us a lot but it’s not only Suzy that I learn from. We managed to learn from each other like how Neesha sees how the beautiful the world is, how small little Chien Yee wants to devour the earth instead. How Syuqri ignite the fire in my competitive streak and how Prem and I can agree to disagree on how mad max is the same movie as lord of the rings. Mostly Saidi, the event organiser and the one that created our very own website, where I see that we will still keep in touch with each other. Thank you each and every one of you.

We have grown together so much for the past 2 months that we’ve became more than friends, we became family. And from seeing everyone’s work with the documentary and more you all have developed to become full fledge editors. I hope that we don’t just hang out but work together soon. ”

All of you are the best. Keep doing what you’re doing and sooner or later your dreams will come true.

Backtrack

Posted in 2015, Life, Malaysian, movies, Self, Uncategorized on September 7, 2015 by Joharizm

Let’s backtrack for a second. Where was I 5 years ago? What did I want to become 5 years ago? Did I achieve what I wanted?

I guess I did better than what I expect it to be. The oldest friend I had mention that he admires my resilience in my art cause no one dares to do what I do. I wanted to direct and still want to. I could say that I’m ready to direct as most are invested with my ideas, the vision I made. 5 years ago all I could wish for is to make something of myself. Wether it’s someones lover, an icon, a friend, or a family man. But I became something I never thought existed. I was still myself. Not a sheep and gave up to normalities of life. No longer shy and afraid of the darkness of the road. I became an individual who can speak his mind and fight for what I think is right.

Staying true to yourself isn’t that hard but to prove to people that you are good enough to make it is the real cherry on top.

Restraint.Ex.Asylum

Posted in 2015, Dreams, Horror, Ideas, Life, Love, Malaysian, Romance, Self, Short Stories, Uncategorized on July 7, 2015 by joharizm

People have a guilty pleasure of horoscope, palm reading and psychic stuff like that. Well for me it has always been dreams and I’ve had really unique dreams lately. The thing about dreams is that it’s trying to tell you something about what you are currently experiencing now. Twice I’ve dreamt of being cheated on but researching on the internet what it could mean that I was lacking in attention from that certain someone, but let’s not talk about that dream. The current dreams I felt like it has multiple meanings. So I grabbed some key moments of the dream and did my research from this site (http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/)

A week ago, I dreamt I was heading out for dinner with some friends and I invited my ex. There she was walking down the sidewalk as I waited for her in front of the restaurant. She looked agitated and uncomfortable seeing me and when she reached me, I asked her “What’s going on?”. She said she came to tell me one last time to not see her again and I went all defensive by replying that we are just friends now and nothing is going to happen. She surprised me by telling me she filed a restraining order as her boyfriend came out of no where and knocked me out (not the same guy in real life). I woke up in a straightjacket and being monitored by doctors and getting locked inside crazed asylum.

Insane dream in the end. Here are the three key words I looked for online.

Restraint

To dream that you are restrained indicates that you are holding yourself back and not fully expressing yourself. Perhaps you are feeling helpless in some situation.

Ex

To dream about your ex-girlfriend that you and your ex are fighting suggests that something or someone in your current life is bringing out similar feelings you felt during that relationship with your ex.

Asylum

To dream that you are at an asylum suggests that you are feeling tremendous mental strain and are trying to reach out for help.

Reflecting back what I dreamt and what it could mean feels like there was some unsettled situation with my ex but the site told me something else. I came to realization that it will never work out between me and my ex. So I started dating and talking to random people online. Yes, I have moved to greener pastures and one girl actually makes me happy and smile through her text and our conversations were long but it starts to get shorter and shorter. I don’t blame either of us cause work is our first love and nothing can change on that. Being restraint by my ex in an asylum could actually mean that I actually like this new girl that subconsciously reminded me of my ex but I’m scared to actually fall in love again and being hurt.  I did admit to her that I like her but I feel that it’s not the best of times for the both us cause she is that special and brings light to me every time I think of her. Bright colors in the darkness sort of situations.

I guess it’s not bad having nightmares once in a while. There are two more dreams I’m investigating on for another night. In the mean time, all I could do with this current girl is just hold on and see if things can and will get better.

Take Care

Posted in 2015, Life, Love, Malaysian, Self, Uncategorized on June 10, 2015 by joharizm

I can no longer take care of her. It’s your turn to be there for her when she needs you. It does not mean I do not love her anymore but now you are the one that is suppose to make her laugh and smile each and every single day until it’s your turn to depart. Intrest her and be interesting. Listen to her even if it gets repetitive or gloomy. Be there when she is at her weakest and lift her spirits up like I use to do. Love her every second and don’t make her sad or cry. Love her strengths and ignore her weakness. Be strong for her and carry her home. Cause now I’m no longer home. You are home now.

Don’t you worry about me. I’ll keep wandering off to the sunset like the cowboy I am. I’ll just be her best of memories and a distant past cause I cannot unlove her but I have let go again another lover of life. As I, the wanderer set myself aside for other’s happiness while I go in search for a person I can call home once more.

AV

Posted in 2015, Life, Malaysian, movies, music, say anything, Self, Uncategorized on May 13, 2015 by joharizm

What keeps me going on a daily basis is music. “I do just fine, with my car and my guitar.” I got tired and wanted it to be over with. So I became a loner.  I stopped complaining about what happened cause no one wants to listen. So I listen to their problems instead. That soothes me. Like music. Having to listen about other love stories and life tragedies really makes me a better person. Cause I help them. I care for others instead of them taking care of me. That’s how I tick. No matter who ever. Strangers. Dates. Allies. Or threats. Some things will never change.

Music on the other hand really defines me. I could go on for hours making the right mix tape for myself, which makes me happy. Born with a family of talented musicians and know you are the black sheep that is kinda tone deaf at that level, really made me push music to the side and concentrate on my movies. Now after years of not touching this subject matter made me realize how much I still love music. Let it be new, old, mainstream or underground, no one can hold a bat when it comes to my vast love to any era or genre of music. Cause when I’m in my lowest low, the only thing that helps is music.

A musician at heart but a film guy through passion. I love them both dearly. Never tell me what I’m listening to is crap or my movie taste is square. It’s a sensitive issue when I go to that. I will fight you if you go against me on this two topics. This is why my first project would be a short that incorporates history of music. I’m ready to man up and fight for it.

2y/9m/1d

Posted in Life, Love, Malaysian, Self with tags , on February 7, 2015 by Joharizm

“A year has past as an editor. I have found the woman of my dreams. The most caring, selfless, innocent, beautiful and smartest person i have ever met, who supports of what i do for a living and helps me chase my dreams. She Just brings the best out of me. Pushing me to the limit to make my own team of three called Black Frames to shoot shortfilms and sketches. The best part of the year was the luck that i have been having. I own a Camera, an iMac and a Laptop with her help. She just is there for me and always supports me in what ever i do even with a bad start we had, but she still proves me that there is no one like her in this world that fits my jigsaw puzzle piece. And a year after, we are still together and in love like the first time we said our “i love yous”. Hoping for a better future for the both of us and our dreams of being the best ever Movie Maker and Doctor duo. As we will live happily ever after.” – Johariz M. Sani, Sept 5, 2013

So we didn’t live happily ever after. 2 years 9 months and 1 day we’re together. The last six months was filled with ups and downs the aftermath is unbearable. But you know what? It was a joyful ride. Instead of writing how bad the feeling is right now or proving a point, I want to honour this relationship as it should be. A tribute if you will.

I know the last phone call to her was mean and un-gentleman like. I stuttered when she said “What is the positives of this relationship?”. I couldn’t think of anything to say cause of my anger. But now I’m calmer and collected, I thought about. It was the best relationship I could wish for. We complimented each other, had fun together, and we live life like there’s no tomorrow. It was very present. It was very real.

What got me into liking her is the way she talks and listens to me. Eager and enthusiastic. Never a dull moment. Always talking, dreaming and planning of things to come. We are both ambitious and wanted bigger and better things in life. Wanting to prove people wrong with our wishful thinking. What we have in common is not that much but our universal liking to art, movies, music and travelling is always a moment I will never forget. The excitement of getting to see her even when we just saw each other just a few hours ago still made me into a giddy little boy on christmas morning. The giggles she makes when I’m being funny really gives a man the confidence he needs.

People around me are telling me to forget her but I don’t think I can. These memories of her is recent and also it’s too good to forget (Eternal Sunshine much?). I don’t want the memories, the knowledge, the happiness we’ve spent together. She gave me a lot more than me and her can think, and not a day goes by without me missing her, together or not. She made me who I am today. The better version of me.

We were made for each other she and I. She will still be dream partner I want to end up with. Just not right now. Here’s a toast for You and I. For a brighter future with or without one another. 🙂

P.S Thank You Amira Natasha. You will still be loved and never be forgotten.

Cuak the Movie : Review

Posted in 2014, Critique, Malaysian, movies on February 17, 2014 by Joharizm

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It was my first premier to a movie and Tony Pietra, one of five directors who invited me, in which i turned down so many times because I am an unknown in this industry and I as one person believe makes a difference in their gross sales to help a friend. Even as an independent movie, my girlfriend said things like “this opportunity doesn’t come often”. So i took the offer after I took the job to edit and help Tony on the music video for the movie. So Tony Peitra is a dear close friend of mine, but that doesn’t mean I’m biased about the movie.

Cuak is a very honest film and took a punch to my gut from just some of the dialogue by the actors. Adam played by Ghafir Akbar and Brenda played Dawn Cheong sold to me as a couple. They we’re exceptionally great during Shamaine Othman’s segment (The Couple). The way the argue over the simplest things to their beliefs and disbelief reminded me of my own relationship and during the segment I couldn’t help but to look over my shoulder to look and my girlfriend and relate it into our relationship. Even so alot of reviewers are going about Tony’s segment (Issues) is the fish out of water of the film, I have to admit it deserve to be stand alone. The neo-noir themed segment was beautifully shot and some of the lighting is just breathtaking for an independent film. Dawn was also very well showcased in this compared to the other 3 segments (minus Shamaine’s The Couple).

Cinematography of the other segments didn’t awe me as much as Issues did but they were strong nonetheless.  Lim Benji’s “Break Up” is a found footage sort of segment where I cringed a little about the cinematography. As realistically thinking, who in the world would still record himself going through break up, but Ghafir and Ani Juliana Ibrahim (Adam’s Ex) made up for it as they pull rabbits out their hats with believable fights with one another and again reflecting myself during an immature line by Ghafir.

This is coming from a fan boy of “Ciplak” which Khairil M Bahar directed. I like his comedy writing in his segment “Bachelor Party” and also love Manesh Nesaratnam’s “In Laws”. The way Khai puts his comedy subtly with Adam having the cold feet or “cuak” with commitment issues and being afraid of changes. Manesh’s segment was the over the top and funniest which had me rolling around my feet during some scenes.

With five different directors could sounds like chaos or it could be “Cuak”. It was well done with such a talented cast and writers. There was a few hiccups here and there but due to the duration of the film for five directors I would understand. Imagine giving 2 hours each for every director of this film, they will do wonders and make our film industry proud. I highly recommend this film for every one to see at least once. It’s as good as “Sepet” without the controversy but not as good as “Ciplak” and now I’m biased

Johariz M.Sani